Now, as a 50-year-old who loves my wife and kids, I want to live forever. I consider myself lucky to have found my way back to the light. I would do anything in my power to prevent the list of people I’ve lost to suicide from growing any longer. I’ve lost too many friends, coworkers, neighbors, and amazing fucking people to suicide.

We do this beer because of Chad, Eddie, Mark, Jeff, Stevie, Dylan, Lucky, Worm, Jenny, Kristen, Michael, Tim, Chris…. We do this because we wish we would have been the ear, the push, the hug, the call. These were great friends and better people that I consider family, and there are many more, way to many more. If you’ve lost someone, fill in their name and remember what made them so special. The name itself isn’t as important as the person we’ve lost, the friend we miss, and the memories we’ll never get to create again. Sometimes I catch myself wondering how Chad would rate this movie, or how Eddie would react to that call, or what Lucky would think about this show. It’s heartbreaking to know that I’ll never get to find out. I wish I could have seen the signs and provided them with resources or had the resources myself to understand what I could do to help. They deserved a chance, a lifeline. 988 is that.

I miss my friends, my coworkers, my people and often, the mere thought of them is enough to bring me to tears. Life is short, but it’s precious. Let’s do what we can to help each other and make it longer. That’s why I urge you to support suicide prevention by spreading the word about 988. It’s important to talk about it, to ask for help, and to be there for others who might be struggling.

Please HELP US SPREAD THE WORD…. CALL 988, and let everyone you know about 988. The person who helped me out was a stranger, someone with positive words, and an open ear that really listened even though we had never met before.  988 can provide that person for someone and if this number saves 1 person it is a success.

Jon Lane
Owner, O.H.S.O. Brewery + Distillery

Fast-forward to my teenage years- where I began to be a popular-unpopular person. It may sound strange saying that- but I was someone who everyone talked about, bullied, and was mistreated in so many different ways. I was an athlete my whole life- despite the circumstances of the pain alongside that and how i was always treated, I always put what i really felt behind me. The list is way too long of the hurtful things I have been told, but to name some experiences; Being pushed into lockers, called hurtful names, spat on, and simply abandoned for being myself. To heartbreak, where everything in my life decided to turn downhill. I was never a party kid or doing drugs. But, my tolerance level took a toll and I lost myself into this phase, getting me addicted to drugs like cocaine to numb the pain. I was tired of all the abandonment, painful years of suffering deep inside from how I have been treated by people I cared about. Prior to this first heartbreak that led me to overdosing and putting me into the hospital- I lost my passion as a collegiate basketball player who trusted the wrong people that caused more unbearable weight to my depression and anxiety. I overdosed multiple times on pain relievers to sniffing blizzards up my nose with cocaine. I got so out of control- i ended up in the hospital that led me into a comatose. I lost my feelings to live more and more , yet continued to live. Things became better after time. I ended up moving on and starting something else in life with building cars as a car influencer. I began to realize that I could win this battle i was going through. I found new love, my life felt as if it was going into the right direction but I didn’t realize the toxicity I had in my life for song where i became so comfortable. I got clean during this 4 year relationship that led to me being abandoned out of no where. Two heartbreaks that made me cry out for help- yet felt so hopeless. As i look back- I thought I was going through something that was easy to cope with… but none of what I was facing was easy. To being mentally abused and also jumped by 7 people between that break of not being in a relationship- that war inside grew. I ended up getting back into drugs again preferably cocaine. I began to party again, did everything we typically do when we experience trauma is we run and numb. Back in 2021 of September- my journey to recovery began. It was rough at first but I was introduced to music. Not yet, what I have become the past year which is actually an artist- but a music artist manager. I let that go and decided to realize my full potential. So i began to focus on me. Focus on my mental health. Focus on who I truly want to be. I wanted to keep living out my purpose in life and to share my story- there is a lot to it. I have left out a lot of extensive details but that is something you can get to know me through my music. I create to make a difference, i still fight the stigma every single day- but music has become my way of coping. Not drinking, not doing drugs, not partying- simply being the genuine and unique creativist. Life is what you make it, you are not defined by the scars you have. Whether they are scars you are able to see with your own eyes to ones that cut deeper- your story matters. You are not alone- you belong here. Its okay to not be okay, your feelings are valid and i believe just like what my brand stands for- spreading agape and living life with a purpose that leads to a story not being done written is the way to keep living. I have saved so many lives humbly, i have lost a dozen of friends from suicide. My focus it to bring awareness and prevent something that lingers within me at times but yet something we tend to ignore and not take seriously.